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I live by love and kindness

Kaua'i is my home and the world is my playground. My blog is a collection of writings from my melodramatic life and bits and pieces of my "photography". I'm awkward and weird. I advise you to not follow me.

What I should have told you:

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I.  I have been under the false pretense that a college education has somehow, in some magical way made a person less ignorant.  That somehow, a pretentious-like, academic career will help inspire people to push against societal structures that oppress far more than they benefit. 

II. It has been four years and I cannot tell you how many times I have walked over ancient burial grounds, now, covered by buildings driven by capitalism and greed.  It has been four years and I cannot tell you the number of trans persons who have died, unaccepted, and unloved by my peers.  It has been four years and I cannot tell you how many times I have been called a feminazi for speaking out against sexist comments and rape jokes (which should not even be called a joke because jokes are funny and rape is not).  It has been four years and I cannot tell you how many times I have said yes to a man because I did not want to be that bitch who said no.  It had been four years and I cannot tell you how many times, because it has always been too much. 

III. It has been four years since the start of my collegiate career and somedays, I still do not feel comfortable in my own skin.  Somedays, it is hard to challenge the system, to think outside the box, to be yellow instead of white, to be a free-loving human being who loves and fucks whoever they choose to instead of a heterosexual, to be a feminist.  Somedays, it is easier to sink into the complacency of normalcy, so you do not need to answer anyones questions.  Somedays, it is easier to sweep everything under the rug, the hard stuff and everything in between including our histories.

 

I shaved part of my head today.  I’ll be wearing beanies for the rest of my life or at least til I’m okay with my bad decision. 

  • R:

    Do I look tired?

  • Me:

    No, but you look extra white today.

  • R:

    What?!? Noooo. I'm spicy. Say I'm spicy.

  • Me:

    No.

  • R:

    I'm gonna punch you in your face.

You’re not on either end of the spectrum, you are the spectrum.
Thank you for intriguing me still.

3.20.14

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